“Do You Want to Be Healed?”

pexels-photo.jpgJanuary 8th, 2018

John 5:2-9a

“Now there is in Jerusalem by the Sheep Gate a pool, in Aramaic called Bethesda, which has five roofed colonnades. In these lay a multitude of invalids—blind, lame, and paralyzed. One man was there who had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there and knew that he had already been there a long time, he said to him, ‘Do you want to be healed?’ The sick man answered him, ‘Sir, I have no one to put me into the pool when the water is stirred up, and while I am going another steps down before me.’ Jesus said to him, ‘Get up, take up your bed, and walk.’ And at once the man was healed, and he took up his bed and walked.”


“Do you want to be healed?” Such a simple question Jesus asks. I mean who doesn’t want to be healed? So many people…so many people have hearts that need to be healed. There are so many hearts that are broken, hurt, lost, confused, alone. There are so many souls longing for a place to call home and someone to call their own. There are so many souls searching and longing for peace…

There are so many people, yet how often am I just wrapped up in my own life, my own struggles, my own hurts? I get so wrapped up in myself that I lack the capability of seeing the hurt others go through…I lack the sight to see others who are hurting. Wait…I must see. I need to see. If I can’t see the hurting people who need to be healed, who need the healing hand of Jesus through the sharing of the gospel, then how can I go about living in peace? I…can’t.

My heart. It hurts right now; it sinks. I am beginning to realize. I drove by a grave yard today, and Jesus opened my eyes to see all the people…so many people who have died and gone before, and yet this is just a fraction of the percentage of people that were and are here on this earth. I wondered as I drove by:

“What were there stories? Did they have people who cared for them and cherished them while they were alive? Did they ever come to salvation through Jesus Christ? Were they able to experience the healing hand of God? Did anyone share with them how they could be healed? Did anyone who knew Jesus ask them if they wanted to be healed? How many gave the response of the man by the pool of Bethesda when asked this that there is no way for healing, or that it is impossible? How many wanted to be healed…but didn’t know how they could be? How many people….want to be healed, but have never known the healing that Jesus Christ, Lord and Savior, freely gives? How many? How many want to be healed, but thought/think there is too much in their lives that could ever be healed? Or that there is too much bad and hurt that could ever be helped?

My heart aches. I know. I know the truth. I have been healed and cleansed by the blood of Jesus as He hung on the cross to pay for our sins…my sins. I have been healed. Yet, I sit now and consider, “How many have I asked if they want healing? For their hearts? Their hurt? Their lives?” Not as many as I should. So many people are hurting…and we as Christians, as children of God, hold the gospel. We hold the truth of how to be healed. I hold the truth…I have Jesus Christ, His spirit, living inside me. Am I asking others if they want to be healed?

I think of my coworkers…I so long them to be set free and safe in the arms of Jesus. I think of my neighbors, the people I see in the grocery store, the people I see crossing the street… I see such hurt, such pain. I see souls lost and wandering…tired of the road they’ve traveled. My eyes are becoming a watery moor. I don’t want to be separated from them forever. I don’t want to see them suffer forever. The fact is they don’t have to. They too, can know the truth. Am I willing to take the time to listen, to be there for them, to share..the truth that will set them free? Am I willing to ask the people around me, as my Savior once did for the man at Bethesda, as He once did for me, “Do you want to be healed?”

Lord Jesus, reveal Yourself to me once again. Break my heart for what breaks yours. Reveal Yourself to the lost. Give me the boldness to stand up for you. Open my eyes to see the lives that need healing. Open my eyes to see those who are hurting. When I look into the eyes of the hurt, lost, wandering, and confused, let my heart ask, “Do you want to be healed? Jesus is the answer…let me show you.” Amen.



Holy Spirit Come

August 2nd, 2017

Acts 2:4

“And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the Spirit gave them utterance.”

A simple verse to understand is it not? It is also one with great meaning and has a mind blowing story that’s attached to it.

This verse takes place for the disciples on the Day of Pentecost when they were all gathered together. Jesus told them all that they would receive the Holy Spirit (Acts 1:8), but little did they know when that would occur. In Acts 2:4, that’s exactly what happened: they received the Holy Spirit.

In verse five we see that the disciples were not alone but that in Acts 2:5-6,

5 “Now there were dwelling in Jerusalem Jews, devout men from every nation under heaven. 6 And at this sound the multitude came together, and they were bewildered, because each one was hearing them speak in His own language.”

Some of the devout men were amazed and questioned, “What does this mean?” (verse 12), while “others mocking said, ‘They are filled with new wine,’ ” (verse 13)

Part of the group of devout Jews thought the disciples were drunk, but Peter explained to them how Jesus had kept His word to give them the Holy Spirit and that even the prophet, Joel, wrote down that this day would come (verses 17-21). Although the disciples were thought to be crazy, Peter held onto the truth, God’s truth. He held onto God’s Word, and in peace he defended the truth using the Holy Scripture itself. He even shared about Jesus and His life with the devout men. After all he said to them, he came to what is said in verse 36:

“Let all the house of Israel therefore know for certain that God has made him both Lord and Christ, this Jesus whom you crucified.”

Wow…how this truth must’ve hurt them. How ashamed they must have felt. We can clearly see that, in verse 37, “Now when they heard this they were cut to the heart, and said to Peter and the rest of the apostles, ‘Brothers what shall we do?’ ”

What then? What did Peter say to them?

Acts 2:38

“And Peter said to them, ‘Repent and baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins, and you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit. For the promise if for you and for your children and for all who are far off, everyone whom the Lord our God calls to himself.’ ”


And what did the devout men do? They repented and were baptized. The Bible says that about 3,000 souls were saved that day (Acts 2:41). Wow…truly the Lord’s Word never returns void! Not only is the promise of Isaiah 55:11 proven true, but these are the following things I’m holding onto from this:

  1. ANYONE who repents and believes in Jesus IS promised the Holy Spirit, our helper.
  2. I have been given the Holy Spirit. (He is with me always!)
  3. Jesus’ promises are true today.
  4. When people speak lies against me, don’t be afraid to speak the truth, just like Peter did.
  5. Speak God’s Word; neither the Enemy nor any evil can defeat it.

Lord, may I remember to hold onto these truths when the trials come. Lord, remind me to hold fast to the truth and let your Word be my weapon and shield. Lord, may I look back on this and remember…may I never cease to continually remember your salvation You’ve given to me and the help of the Holy Spirit that I have with me always. To your name be honor, glory, and power, Jesus. Amen!


My Heart He Knows

July 29th, 2017                                                                                                                                        (Written on: June 14, 2017)

Romans 8:26-30

26 Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. 27 And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because[g] the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. 28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good,[h] for those who are called according to his purpose. 29 For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 30 And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified.”

Isn’t it so refreshing to know that the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness? I don’t know about you, but I know I need a lot of God’s help and that I have a lot of weaknesses. For me, they give a breath of fresh air, remind me of God’s power, and His love shown to me through the help of the Holy Spirit.

I am reminded that my God and my Savior has not forgotten about me, and He is faithfully by my side helping me along the way, especially when I cannot see what He has in store. I am reminded that ALL things work together for good. Whether I see that now or many years later after circumstances or events occur, or even if I don’t see the good until the day I am reunited with Christ. I know without a doubt that it IS true: God works all things together for good. I am reminded that I was predestined for Christ, and having been predestined He called me, and because He called me, He also justified me, and being justified through Christ, He has glorified me…Knowing and believing this, I can faithfully trust that my heart He knows: completely.

What do I even say to that? Honestly it is beyond my grasp and full comprehension, but wow, how I know it IS true.  It is true for ALL who are in Christ Jesus. It is true for every one of my brothers and sisters in Christ. We are called, justified, and glorified through Christ! What a reminder these verses are to walk in it!


Life These Days: Update on IGNITE and the Next Steps

May 20th, 2017

2 Corinthians 12:9

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”

Isaiah 41:4

“Who has performed and done this,
    calling the generations from the beginning?
I, the Lord, the first,
    and with the last; I am he.”

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How time flies…It blows my mind to think it was nearly eleven months ago when I first arrived in Antigua, Guatemala for IGNITE Class 11’s training. It’s even more mind-blowing to know this day that I have completed training, field time, and re-entry now currently standing in the midst of finishing the program with serving less than two months here at my home church. In the moment there were times I thought it would go on forever and now looking back I see just how fast life drives us by and how precious every moment is and can be if we choose to let it. How precious it is when we allow God to come in each and every day, and when we ask Him to fill us with His Holy Spirit, He is faithful and just to do so. How precious it is to me that the Lord allowed a sinful wretch like me saved by His grace to go…to go and serve Him, experience Him far beyond what I could see, and reach out to those, who for many of them had never tasted His grace before.

I’ve been back in my own home of the great outdoors Montana now for nearly a month (not including re-entry). Though Cambodia is physically distant from me, it and and its people are very near and dear to my heart, with at least several thoughts of it each day. There are even more thoughts of my dear friends, my brothers and sisters in Christ, whom I had the privilege of getting to know while I was there that occur throughout the day. Truly, the Lord does work in mysterious ways; He took a girl who was scared, not “ready”, and like Jonah in not wanting to go to a place far out of comfort zone, and He made me into a woman who fell in love with a country and people who showed me what true discipleship looks like when it’s walked out and reminded to embrace the freedom of Christ that each believer truly has been given.

What a journey these last eleven months have been, and I am looking forward for what God has in store. I am currently going to Browning every Saturday for about the next six weeks to serve in Kid’s Club alongside Potter’s Field, helping with Tiny Tots (a moms/children “get together” at the church) every Friday, and doing Kid’s Church alternating between Wednesdays and Sundays. I do ask for your prayers as serving the Lord continues every day, and it is only by Him alone that I can do these things and do them well. Along with my serving time, I have been looking for part-time work, knowing the Lord will bring the exact job that He would want me to walk forward in. With two applications I have sent in, I am anxiously awaiting expectant phone calls this coming week for interviews. Your prayer would be most appreciated concerning this. I know there is amazing power in prayer when believers come together to call on the name of our Savior, Jesus.

These are just a few of the things that are going on in my life, things the Lord has taught me and continues to teach and show me every day as life goes on. I could most definitely fill pages worth of things the Lord has done and the ways He has shown me who He really is and how He continues to do so. But for now I press on. I press on in knowing Him. I press on in learning to live and walk in His ways. I press on because I know He is in control and His promises can always be trusted because He is faithful and true. I press on simply because He is. No matter what this life throws my way, He leads the way.He is my rock and shield. He is my shelter in the storm. He does provide all that we need and never leaves not even for a moment. He will bring His plans for my life to completion. He does not bring things my way to harm or destroy me. He does have plans for my life to give me a future and a hope. He does not give up on me; He faithfully picks me up when I fall and always forgives my sin when I come before Him and confess it. Even when I start to drift or walk away, He doesn’t. He has never left my side. He never will. My God is good. My God is faithful and just. My God is unfathomable and His ways are far greater than my own. His amazing grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me. I indeed was lost but now I’m found. I was blind but now I see.

May our Lord Jesus Christ bless you and keep you. May He daily shine His face upon you. I pray you all are well and with encouragement I gladly put forward, “Press on!” Our Lord and Savior has so much more in store for each and every one of us. There is still so much He has for us to do as His children and disciples. There is still a huge and important calling on each of your lives, and Jesus is not finished with you yet. Rest in His peace, push forward in His strength, rely on His guidance, and press on in His love. With the following verse I close:

Hosea 6:3

“Let us know; let us press on to know the Lord;
    his going out is sure as the dawn;
he will come to us as the showers,
    as the spring rains that water the earth.”

All glory and honor to our Jesus Christ, our King, forever and ever amen!!

In Christ,


Good News To All

IBS                                                                                                                             March 28, 2017

Acts 5:42

“And every day, in the temple and from house to house, they did not cease teaching and preaching Jesus as the Christ.”


This verse makes me chuckle in awe. This verse comes after the fact that the apostles had been brought before the council, and were going to face consequences from them for sharing the good news. Yet, because the Lord’s hand was upon the lives of the apostles, a Pharisee of the council, advised to let the men go due to previous happenings with men in the past, who had had many followers but eventually came to nothing. He was telling the men of the council not to be worried for he believed the apostles too, would come to nothing. Little did they know that the name of Jesus would never cease to spread and because of men like the apostles, who were willing to give their all, the good news of Jesus Christ is still being spread today.

The moment these men were released from the council, they went straight back to sharing the good news. Every day they proclaimed to the people that Jesus is the Christ. Lord, I want my heart to be like that…Lord, I want to have such urgency and fervency to share about You.

In The Name of Jesus

IBS                                                                                                                        March 27 ,2017

Act 3:16

“And his name—by faith in his name—has made this man strong whom you see and know, and the faith that is through Jesus has given the man this perfect health in the presence of you all.”


Your name alone…Jesus. Your name brings healing, your name brings life; your name brings hope and restoration. Your name is what I came to share with the people of Cambodia. It’s because of You, Jesus, that there is such a thing of salvation and that a Gospel message can even exist.

As this story refers to the lame man who lay at the gate called beautiful, his healing was important. It brought to surface the One who did the true healing through the hands of his servants (Peter & John): Jesus.  Jesus was the one who healed this man through the faith of his disciples. They were the ones Jesus used to give understanding to the people that the glory was due to Jesus alone. The disciples understood clear as crystal that they were only men and not gods, for the one and only true God is our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

You did not just have one purpose in allowing Peter and John, the willing vessels, to be used to heal the lame beggar; You had two. The first being the miracle itself, and the second, was to bring recognition to what faith through You and in You, Jesus, can do. I have truly witnessed what You do through your willing servants who trust You I complete faith. It is in times like this that I have been drawn loser to You and encouraged in my faith.

Lord, may I never forget all that I have seen You do, and what I have been a part of through faith in You. Lord Jesus, please help me to hold tight to the simplistic ways of your gospel. It is because of You that I am made whole, and when I lose my way, You draw me back to remind me of the faith I’ve held onto so tightly.

Welfare In The Exile

IBS                                                                                                                                  March 14th, 2017

Jeremiah 29:4-7

“Thus says the Lord of hosts, the God of Israel, to all the exiles whom I have sent into exile from Jerusalem to Babylon: Build houses and live in them; plant gardens and eat their produce. Take wives and have sons and daughters; take wives for your sons, and give your daughters in marriage, that they may bear sons and daughters; multiply there, and do not decrease. But seek the welfare of the city where I have sent you into exile, and pray to the Lord on its behalf, for in its welfare you will find your welfare.

Though I’ve known this chapter a lot throughout my life, the Lord never ceases to teach me and show me new things. The children of Israel were headed into exile for many years; yes this we know. For me though, how I have easily overlooked many times is the the Lord’s instruction to his children while they are in exile: to build houses, live just as they would in freedom, multiply, and seek welfare in the city of exile. For He says, “for in its welfare you will find your welfare.” How often have I looked at the exile of the children of Israel as a season of welfare? I have no doubt the Israelites thought the same thing themselves at on point in time too. Yet, I am wrong. For indeed it was the Lord himself that declared that there was welfare within the exile. He told his children to live a productive life; He told them to build, plant, eat, and multiply… to seek the welfare in the city of exile.

The Lord had greater purpose for his children than just having them mourn and wallow in self-pity. He had blessing for them amidst the trial, purpose beyond the persecution. Also, later in verses 10-11 we see that one of God’s purpose was to fulfill His promise when seventy years in Babylon had been completed. Truly God’s way is higher than our way, His thoughts higher than our thoughts.

What seasons of exile has the Lord so faithfully brought me through? How great is the welfare He has brought forth through these exiles! In fact, far more welfare has come from the trials and exile. According to Merriam-Webster’s dictionary, one of the definitions fo the word exile means: state or a period of voluntary absence from one’s country or home. When I read this, I knew it was no coincidence that the Lord had me read through Jeremiah during this season of my life. My time here in Cambodia is my season of voluntary exile here in the Ignite program. Though surely at first it felt like exile in a negative way and I began to ask the Lord, “Did I make a mistake in coming here?” He has been faithful to show me sine the beginning that it was indeed not a mistake. Rather, it has brought forth the purpose I believe the Lord had had planned all along. Truly, by choosing to build, live, eat with the people, and form relationships appointed by God, the welfare has been more than abundant.

Voluntary exile; this means that it has been done or given because I want to and not because I was force to. It was done by choice. Yes, the Lord gave me a choice in coming to Cambodia and in coming to the Ignite program in general. I never HAD to come.. I was not forced to come. Although there have been times of great feelings of being “forced” (as human and fleshly as it sounds) by the Holy Spirit to come, or to live with full regret the rest of my days if I had not come, I know it was the Lord who chose this season for me to accomplish His purpose. Truly I have been able to build a temporary home hear, eat of the produce of the land, and have seen the increase of lost souls becoming found as children of God.

How silly of me to doubt that the Lord would work out everything for my good. I know with all my heart that this has been a season of abundant blessings, and the work I have seen You do in my life Lord and in the life of many others has definitely squashed the seasons of bad and discouragement. You have said to me: “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will here you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.” (Jeremiah 29:11-12) Thank You, Lord Jesus, for showing me the welfare within the exile..it has been through your children here in Cambodia that my desire for heaven has been encouraged and uplifted. Thank You…